Hard work pays off!

For those of you I have not already updated, Ashleigh Hope is now full time feeding at the breast (except every other Saturday when I work at the clinic for 6 hours). I am so happy. There is no more pumping and bottles and washing and syringes and tubes taped to breasts! No more frustration, just mama and baby and some Fenugreek tea.

Ash now weighs over 10 lbs! She is two months old and in the 25th percentile for her weight, but we're happy with that. My grandmother was a very petite lady, so maybe she takes after her.

Lately we've hit a wall with sleeping though. Namely..... Ash just doesn't like it much. Sleep, that is. Which makes for a very tired, very forgetful, very weepy mama at times. She has been "sleeping" in the co-sleeper beside my bed since we brought her home from the hospital. But Last night after several hours of off/on nursing, crying and restless "resting", I put her into her crib in the room next to ours. I just HAD to sleep. ................Oh the guilt. Lots of guilt with that, and after going into her room 4 or 5 times and moving the fan in there and a nightlight we both fell asleep for a few hours until she woke and I brought her to my bed to nurse again.

I snapped this photo today while we were home along. Wes is at school and Nana came to take Liam ice skating. As you can see from the dark circles under my eyes, I still have not had rest, but as the smile on my face shows I am so happy and in love with the sweet little face next to mine.

This is what early motherhood is.... Bliss, exhaustion, and love.



It goes so fast I know. So fast that sometimes in the blur of sleep deprivation you almost miss it. I'm trying very hard to burn these memories into the back of my mind. I think she is my last little one. It's bittersweet. A part of my will be glad to move past the baby days and onto big kid stuff with my three, but another part will miss that little 2 month old face of hers, as I miss those baby boy faces I used to kiss.

Until next time...... take care.